I think my heart is breaking just a little bit. I was in the basement sorting through the girls' baby clothes. I am planning to sell two bins of them at Kid to Kid tomorrow morning. I ended up sorting a bin of 3-6 months girl clothes. I'm sure you can picture them - mostly pink, and all adorable. I could picture the way the girls looked in many of them. I think I was in a bit of denial that they won't be wearing them again.
Growing up has been hitting me hard in general the past couple of weeks. B switched to a "big girl bed" last night. (Long overdue I know, probably more denial. :o) She's starting preschool in September. I generally consider myself a fairly calm mother, but I'm starting to panic. The rational part of myself knows that she's going to be fine, the emotional part of me is mostly a wreck.
She's been starting to be more aware of others and what they think. Recent quotes (that have been breaking my heart) have been:
"I'm nervous about the other kids..."
"I'm feeling shy..."
"I'm not an artist Mommy. I don't know how to draw any of those things. I only know how to draw tangles..."
I don't know where she's coming up with these feelings. She's only 3 1/2!
On the other hand, I know she's going to work through these feelings at some point. I know she will work through them. I know she will meet kids at preschool and make lots of friends. I know she'll be fine.
I'm not sure I will, but I'll keep working on that... :o)
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I am confused. I thought I changed over to a big girl bed years ago! And I could have sworn I went to pre-school already :O)
Seriously though, it's wild how much our babies are growing up. As we've been told, "bigger kids bring bigger problems." I guess we should enjoy the terrible two's that Josh nd H are in the midst of!
B is a great kid, and yes, she will do awesome at pre-school. She's going to have such a wonderful time. I think it's great that she can verbalize her concerns to you. I can see how you could be a little sad: ) I will be too when the time comes.
Remind me that I have an idea for you.
Aww...I know the feeling. The last time I went home to visit my family I realized my nephew is much more independent now, and then the realization that he'll be starting kindergarten this year hit me! I remember feeling him kick in my sister's womb!
*sigh*
Your kids sound adorable. They really are so precious!
My kids are 20, 17, and 15 years old. But just yesterday they were babies and toddlers. They grow so fast!
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